& this bird you cannot change.

I recieved some very unfortunate news yesterday.

Its news that would break my heart if its true.

Im having a really hard time deciding what to do with this information..

Its possible it was fabricated knowing it would get back to me.

God doesn't like ugly. Your supposed to forgive.

Tomorrow is promised to no one..

But this time I don't know know if I can forgive.

I can easily say the words I forgive you, but it would be a lie, I don't think I can forgive. I don't have it in my heart yet..

Ive had to be the bigger person my whole life and I don't know if I can this time.

But can I live the rest of my life being angry?

If it is true and I take no action I will be making a mistake that I will regret for the rest of my life.

Is regret stronger than anger?

Can false forgiveness over power anger?

The anger brings me sorrow, I want to let it go, but I have to do it in my own time.

Now im on a deadline.

Do I believe the news and go against everything I believe in and just accept things for what they are?

What if its not true and it was all a set up?

Even if the news isn't true now, it will be one day.

I didn't expect it now though. I didn't wanna deal with this so soon.

Im not ready to deal with all the emotions.

I know I have to find the strength to face this, I don't know if I can do it soon enough.

Im being forced by my better judgements and faith to start trying now for the first time in my life.

If I don't I will be sorry. I know it has to be me. It's not fair.

Then again, no one ever said life was fair.

“If I leave here tomorrow, would you still remember me? I must be traveling on now, there’s too many places I’ve got to see. If I stay here with you girl, things just wouldn't be the same. ‘Cause I’m as free as a bird now and this bird you cannot change. Bye, bye Mr. Sweet Love, you’re just a feeling I can’t change. Please don't take this so badly, 'cause the Lord knows I’m to blame.”

brandi