Tuesdays.

Im really tired..

Its Tuesday morning.. Not even halfway through the week.. Luckily this is a short week at CWC.. Im off at 2pm tmw and then Thursday and Friday.. But I will be at RamsHead for the ball droppin so that really sucks..

Just thinkin out loud..

I feel like my life is going to take an unexpected turn in the next few months.. Not with anything specific but just I feel like something significant is going to happen.. Something that will make me look back and think wow didnt see that coming.. I dont know.. Like I said just thinkin out loud.

Im not sure yet if its a good thing or not..

Hopefully. Cuz I could really use some good news right about now..

2 days till X-Mas!

Well tomorrow is Christmas Eve.. This is without a doubt my favorite time of year..

Its chilly out though.. but maybe itll snow in time for Christmas.

The last week or so Ive been doing a lot of self reflecting.. Ive had so many thoughts racing in and out of my head lately thats its kinda hard to get em down on paper.. Some wouldnt be appropriate for this blog anyway but.. Nevertheless they're still my thoughts.. the inner workings of my mind.. I dont think I could even begin trying to explain how my mind works.. Its taken me 19 years to figure out what I know so far..

I usually try to look at things in broader spectrum.. I try to figure things out on my own before I talk to someone about how I feel.. Well this time i think I might have to..

Egh I need a manicure.

For the ladies.

Ok this is about my third blog in thirty minutes but I just cant help it today, I just had to cover one more topic..

Ladies when the fuck are you gonna stop fuckin these men. When are you going to understand a man will not buy a cow if he is getting milk for free. When a man meets a female he automatically puts you in one of two categories fuckable or datable. There is of course that third category where you aren't either but thats another days topic.. If you can have a conversation with a man without him making some stupid ass remark about how there must be a keg in your pants cuz he wants to tap that ass then you might want to have a second conversation with this man. If not take it for what its worth..

Love and sex are two completely different things. If you are having sex with a man and thats all you do with that man, then do your thing hey we all have needs. But do not lay in a mans bed three times a week for a month, then expect him to ask you to see a movie. Or take your fat ass out to dinner. If you fuck a guy once..if he calls you again guess what?...Hes not calling to meet your parents he wants to fuck. He is not worried about takin you out when hes already got the prize in the bottom of the cracker jack box. Do not ever pull that card after you been fuckin a man.. If he wanted to be with you and was worth havin around, he would have had enough respect for you as a woman to try and get to know you a little bit before you fuck.. or in some cases at least know your fuckin last name. Like i said, if your fuckin a man and thats what you do thats fine, but understand the difference.

Im tired of hearin about these weak ass females crying about "He only calls me when he wants to have sex." Well thats probably because the morning after the first time you met him you were trying to get all your clothes off his floor before runnin out the door.. Which is fine as long as your protecting yourself and you took that night for what it was.. One night you spent together.. He is not your solemate, you are not gonna marry him, you had a one night stand, and if you didnt get yours in the time yall spent together then that is your problem. Be real ladies. No man is worth your tears. Dont be foolish.

Kudos to the men out there willing to get to know a woman, and yes we are all crazy. But some women out there are worth workin for it.

brandi.

Do it for you.

Ok so this is kinda on my mind..

I just wanna put it out there that if while having a good time out with friends, maybe at all the holiday/ new years parties that are going on in December, if you get into a fight with your man over something stupid, maybe you just shouldnt be with that man anymore. If its small, so he spills something on your dress, oh well accidents happen, let it gooo. But if you find that when your out at a bar with said "man" and hes actin a jealous fool. Drop his ass pleasse.

If a man is not secure enough to go out with his girl and party with other persons of the male persuation or if he is uncomfortable with you going out and having a goodtime without him.. Hes not worth having.. theres no two ways about that.

If you cant be yourself when you are with someone, why the fuck are you with them?..

Be happy with who you are as a person, anyone should be happy as shit to be around you because you should just glow with happiness. Do whatever you have to do to make yourself happy. Who cares about what everyone else thinks or wants.. As women we are naturally inclined to protect the people we love.. But hey.. sometimes you just gotta do things for you. Do whatever makes you feel good, or makes you feel balanced. If your unhappy you have no one to blame but yourself. If you arent, do something about it! Make a move, control your own life.

We only have one life. Make it worth living, make your life a story you wanna tell your grandkids..

Do not ever regret anything. Before you make any decision, even small ones.. think about how its going to effect you in the future. Short and long term. If you make every decision based on this, you should never regret anything. Every experience you go through in life shapes who you turn out to be, it shapes your morals and opinions. If you look back and theres things you want to change, thats like wanting to change yourself. So .. again this goes back to being happy with who the fuck you are. Be proud of who you are.

"If you cant handle me at my worst, you dont deserve me at my best."

-Marilyn Monroe

brandi

Live your life.

I think its amazing to see people you work with enjoy themselves, have a goodtime. I love to have a goodtime and enjoy myself and its not very often that everyone can cut loose and have a little fun.. The holidays do that to some people.. others just get so stressed out they barely speak to anyone for the month of december. ((my mother))..

Anyway just wanted to say if you havent went out and enjoyed yourself this holiday season you need to get on that.


"If you work for a living, then why do you kill yourself working?"


Live your life, party, and let shit go.. Youll be a better person.

Poeple suck.

So I spent most of my morning on hold to speak to a Medicare rep. Which might I add has just been a most delightful experience..

Fucking assholes. Every single one of them. No one can properly answer questions, all they know how to do is transfer your call to someone else. All I needed to do was have the address of one of my physicians changed on the directory on their website. Simple right?..

No it just about took me all day before I finally snapped. One of the reps told me I had to contact social security because the medicare site is directly linked to the social security system.. That makes no fucking sense what so ever. And if he thought I was gonna beleive that load of garbage then he was sadly mistaken. I askked to speak to his supervisor so he transfers me to yet another dumbass rep who has no fucking idea what there job even entails.. she tells me i need to call the provider help line, whom I had already spent an hour on the phone with. She transfers me to some other dumb bitch only to give me a phone number that when I dialed it says "Im sorry the number you have dialed is no longer available".

Im so blown right now.

I hate insurance reps.

I rewarded myself with a Burrito Bol.

brandi

Start the day right.

I had mountain dew and a peice of choclate cake for breakfast. It was delicious.

MMmm.. I think Ill bake a cake tonight.. Pineapple upsidedown cake.. yum.

Dining out for dummies.

Ok one more for today..

In reading the below post, please refer to "Dining Out for Dummies: Daley Inspirations".

Kudos to Chrissy for finally saying what I have been thinking for the last few months..

When are poeple gonna understand you just dont bite the hand that feeds you. I would never spit in someones food, but there have been a few customers at Rams that have made me think about it. For some reason the assholes always get sat in my section. You know, the ones who think theyre better then you because your the waitress, bull shit. I think it takes a real peice of shit person to talk down to someone because they were hired to provide you with an enjoyable dining experience. Once I had a customer who when i informed him we didnt carry the liquor he wanted he rudely stated that I should go to the liquor store.. Well guess what asshole? I work for the restaurant, therefore I deliver food from the kitchen to your table and the same for the rest of my section. My job is not to suck your dick or do whatever else it is you need done for the day. If you want Tia Maria go to Jamaica.

Love to all the servers out there who bust there ass to brighten your dining experience and make an honest living.. Fuck assholes.

brandi.

Adrenaline or bust.

Number 2 on the list of things up for disscussion. Things I wanna do before I die.

Skydiving.

Bungee jumping.

Diving with sharks.

Parasailing.

Paragliding.

White water rafting.

Visit Great wall of China.

African safari.

Visit Ireland.

Visit New Zealand.

Visit Paris.

Learn Jazz tap dancing.

Ball room dancing.

Drive Nascar.

These are just a few things.

Anyway the reason this topic was sparked in my mind.. Is because during one of my adventures with my friend LeAnn we decided it was about time we finally went skydiving. We will probably go in April.. Then in July we are planning something else... maybe parasailing..since we can do that right in OC. The again in November for my birthday we are planning somehting else. Not sure what yet.. maybe paragliding..

Some people wonder why in the hell you would ever jump out of a perfectly good plane.. Well its the rush .. just to say you went skydiving.. Fell from 2 1/2 miles in the air! What isnt exciting about that.

Will post more about this later.

brandi.

Friday Night.

Friday night was the annual CWC Christmas party.



This is how the night went.. I left work at about 3pm with a few other girls and we headed over to the country club in rockville. Popped a bottle a wine and started to get ready.. At 6:30 hors de oeuvres and cocktails were open then at 7:30 they opened the dining room and dance floor, which is where I was.. At 8 pm we ate and then danced until about 10:30. By then I was exhausted. Here is a pic of everyone from the CBO except a few.


Interesting night..

Number 1 mistake made by people at their company Christmas party.. Drinking too much and actin a fool. Not me.. almost but there was quite a few people on the dance floor getting a little too buck nasty for the country club. Funny as all hell to watch though.. But I think Ive seen enough Medical Assistants drop it like its hot for 2008.


brandi.

Love is madness.

This is my favorite love quote of all time, thought Id share it.

"Love is a temporary madness.

It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides.

And when it subsides you have to make a decision.

You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part.

Because this is what love is.

Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion.

That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident."

- Captain Corelli's Mandolin

As time goes by I relate to this more and more.. Thats all I have to say about that.

brandi

Need coffeeee..

Well Im runnin on about 2 hours of sleep right now. By the time I left Rams last night it was after midnight and I went home to finish sewing my dress for the CWC Christmas party and shower blah blah.. and finally got to bed around 2am.. Felt like my head was on my pillow for all of 5 minutes.. I was up at 5:30 to curl my hair.. yuck. Lucky for me traffic was alright this morning heading to work. On my way here I was trying to eat french toast and drive so of course that ended in disaster. I spilled syrup on my dresscoat.. Great..

Not to mention when I pulled out of my neighborhood some stupid ass guy walked out in front of my car in the middle of a main road.. I almost killed him. Then after I passed him I realized who it was.. Old friend from grade school.. I went to the "sock hop" with him in fourth grade.. haha. We looked like a bunch of nine year olds trying to be teenagers in the fifties haha..

Hmm I wonder why he was walking down Dorsey Rd. at 7:30 in the morning...

Anyway.. my morning has started off to be interesting..

Lets see how the rest of the day goes..

brandi.

Just saying.

Its Brandi, with an I.

So I started this blog because I was inspired by the creator of Let Me Be...Frank. And I figured with all the rediculous shit that happens to me I would have plenty to ramble about.

Lets start with the basics. Im from Jessup, MD. Not that many people have heard of Jessup unless they've gotten lost between Baltimore and DC in which case they say "Near all the prisons?" Yea.. Jessup has about 7 prisons and an asylum.. and about 20 liquor stores and deli's. Ive lived here all my life and I love it.. Although sometimes I wish everything wasnt changing so fast..

Anyway.. Im 19. Redheaded, lefthanded, and high on life. If your reading this you probably already know that though. I love my life and everyone in it. With no exceptions, everyone in my life has taught me something, some more than others, good and bad. I think that mostly what Ill write about.. The people, and things they do that make me think...

The most important thing I have learned is to be a leader. So, youll never find me doing something cuz everyone else is. But you probably already knew that too.

Im a diehard Ravens fan. And I eat at Chipotle way too much. I basically wanna do everything before I die, I wanna experience as much as I can while I still can.. Im pretty outspoken.. I get along with everyone, but if I dont like you your gonna know it. I can be a little intense sometimes.. thats an understatement. But Im pretty laid back too. Im honest.. sometimes too honest.. I was raised to be thankful for what I have..and to work for the things I want... But I love the struggle, I think thats what makes life worth living.

I have a fulltime job in the Women's Healthcare industry and I couldnt ask for more in a career. I absolutely love my co-workers and what I do. They keep it interesting.

My part time is at Ramshead in Savage.. everyone there is just pretty much insane.

I think my plan is too serve there till I can start bartending. Then bartend somewhere in Baltimore..well see.

So.. this is my life. Welcome to it..

brandi.